Whispers of an Overthinker

Am I annoying? Am I too loud?
Do I stand out too much in the crowd?

Am I disturbing? Do I intrude?
Do my words come off as rude?

Am I hurting? Am I wierd?
Do they wish I wasn't there?

Am I enough, or just a mistake?
A troublemaker, hard to take?



Do they listen? Do they care?
Or just pretend that I’m not there?

Do they judge me when I speak?
Do they think that I am stupid?

Am I awkward? Do I bore?
Should I stay or leave the place?

Do they laugh when I’m away?
Wish that I would never stay?

These questions echo in my mind,
Answers I may never find.
A restless mind that craves some peace.



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